Sue's Weight Loss Story
| Down the diet trail for 45 years! |
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My Journey: The following is the saga of 45 years of dieting. I was born fat (9 lbs but only 19 inches long!). Obesity doesn't RUN in my family... it gallops! I went on my first diet when I was 15 years old. After slimming down (never below a size 14), my bodyfat level was so low, my periods stopped for a year. By the end of each school year I had re-gained the weight. It went downhill from there. This is blunt, honest and detailed. So get a cup of coffee and relax....
What I learned: If I starve I can stay at a lower weight but the moment I eat normally, my body re-gains. Weight after regain: 158 One Meal a day 1962 - Senior year in HS. This is what Dr Eades lost her weight on, by the way, something she and her husband later sold in a modified approach (allowed low carb snacks) as "The Carbohydrate Addicts diet". Starved all day, ate moderately at dinner. I exercised too. Lost down to 135. I walked home, 3 miles, daily from school AND went to intramurals 3 times a week. But still, I gained it all back by summer. Weight after regain: 167 What I learned: Other kids could eat pizza and pop and not gain while my sitting and even WATCHING them consume these goodies could add a pound to my weight! And each time I dieted I lost LESS weight and gained it back sooner. What was up with this? This is NOT what all the books I read said! Milk and exercise diet: In the convent in 1964, it was very hot. Also the food was different so I ate smaller portions but drank gallons of milk and it was whole milk. I also moved a lot more than I did before I entered - walked to school etc. To my surprise I lost 30 lbs without trying. Then I got worried about the calories of drinking all that milk. I cut down on milk and ate more food. Gained back the weight. What I learned: The claim that milk may have an enzyme to aid with weight loss might be true. After the convent: Low calorie again. This time I allowed myself 1200 calories
a day and when I went on maintenance, I still counted my calories religiously. I
was determined to not gain back. I was at 123, a weight I decided I liked.
I limited myself to 1200 - 1500 calories a day when I was probably
What I learned: That "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels" is baloney. I felt tired all the time. I was constantly cold. I got sick a lot. I was very depressed. And I was always ravenously hungry. (Gina Kolata, in RE-THINKING THIN, calls this "PRIMAL HUNGER" the kind you cannot resist - it is hormonally caused, turns out). Smoking 1966-1981 with a break for
pregnancy and nursing: Yes, tried that to
What I learned: Dairy Queen has medicinal value! :) Also breast feeding only burns more calories if you are nursing an 18th month old who eats a lot! Stillman Cottage cheese diet 1969 I loved Cottage cheese so decided I would do Stillman, once a month to 'crash off' 10 lbs. On this diet you only eat one food, cottage cheese and you can have as much of it as you want. The first couple of months, I maintained for 3 weeks, then the fourth week, went on Stillman as long as I could stand it (about 3 days). Lost 10 lbs each time. By the 3rd month, I went on Stillman but almost collapsed the 4th day. And the 4th month, I couldn't stomach the idea so I ate well instead. Gained the 20 lbs back pretty quickly. What I learned: Crash dieting doesn't work on the long term. I didn't like feeling like I was going to pass out. (Single food diets end up limiting portions so that's why you lose weight. I mean you can only eat so much of cottage cheese!) Also although you lose weight on the scale while fasting, you don't lose a lot of fat thus tend to NOT lose a lot of inches (lose muscle and bone mass instead) Exercise 1970 I was pretty much exercising all along as my bicycle was my car but one summer, in addition, I tried swimming daily. It shaped me up but I lost absolutely no weight! Tipping scales at 178-180 now. What I learned: Exercise makes you feel great. But for some of us, it doesn't "work" to make us slim. This was something new - an organized
weight loss program with meetings. I had picked What I learned: If you say a certain food is forbidden, guess what you get wild cravings for? It was after Weight Watchers I learned about "diet related bingeing". Like the time I made a chocolate cake from scratch and it was GOOD and hubby and I sat down and ate the WHOLE thing at one sitting! Also, I learned that dieting can blow away your gall bladder. After my stint on WW here, my gall bladder has never worked well since. Fun fun fun. They don't tell you THAT on Discovery Health either. I bought Robert Atkins' first book named "Diet Revolution". I was coming off Weight Watchers and this book made a lot of sense and I loved the foods one could indulge in, on this diet, cheese, cream and more... you know all the food forbidden on the old Weight Watchers' program. I went in, totally believing in it. My experience with this program was cut very short! For a day and a half, I enjoyed whipped cream, quiche and steak, eggs etc. Then, I got a gall bladder attack - so much for Atkins. (Since then, Atkins' science has never been proven. Atkins like other limited food diets, tend to limit portions for most people - for those who ate a lot, they can gain weight on it). What I learned: Sounding good and scientific doesn't MAKE it good and scientific. Also, from what I have heard since, about the kidney and cardiac risks from this diet, I guess I'm lucky I couldn't stay on it. Swimming 1975By this time we'd moved out West. I decided to just exercise. So I rode my bicycle everywhere and swam several laps every day. Got "down" to 178 about the starting weight I was when I first started Weight Watchers. But lost no more. Felt great though. What I learned: Exercise feels great but doesn't cause much of a weight loss unless you do it for 3 hours a day. I stopped weighing myself. Rule #1. If you don't look at the scale, then you are not gaining, right?
Couldn't Exercise - 1977 to 1984: During these years, I had an illness where I lost my mobility to a great extent. For most of this time, I was totally sedentary and could not exercise. So I gained up to 240 or so. What I learned: If you have the wrong genes, being sedentary is a killer on your weight. Even watching what I ate, I slowly gained.
Exercising 1985I started walking nightly and pushed the distance up to 1.8 miles every night. So I figured now that I was mobile, I would quickly lose the weight I'd gained during my ill period. WRONG. Lost down to 203 and then, my body stopped losing and started to slowly gain. I blamed myself of course.. Basically, I had found out that diets didn't work. But what DID work? Some people were able to keep reasonably slim. How did they do it? Most of them could not tell me. I interviewed people and read a lot of books over the years looking for "the way". I knew there has to be a way. I just had to find it. Meanwhile I sort of half dieted and stayed "somewhere" in the mid 200's. As I got older, if I tried to do a 1000 calorie diet, first thing that happened was I got very ill. If I ignored the illness, I got sicker. Less fun than being fat - was really stopped in my tracks, not willing to do anything dangerous or risky, not willing to try another useless diet. Square Dancing 1990We took square dancing lessons in 1990 - went 3-4 times a week. Also son moved out and I had problems with IBS and lack of appetite and depression. Started losing weight. Lost down to 189, lowest I'd been in years. Unfortunately, DH hurt his foot and that was the end of square dancing but I had seen that A LOT of exercise DID have an affect on weight loss. Gained back to ?. What I learned: having an exercise partner who is a couch potato can be hard on your program! Also bulimia works somewhat. :) OK, call me dumb but yes, I was SO SICK of constantly saying "no" and STILL not losing weight but rather gaining. I had a good job where we could afford fast food nightly. I found out that if I ate a certain amount of high fat fast food, my gall bladder would kick in, I would get nauseous and cramps, have the runs and hurl up my dinner. Well, at least I didn't gain any weight from fast food nightly and sorta had fun eating for once in my life, although the hurling and diarrhea were NOT fun. I was exercising, at least biking 3 times a week. Weight around 238. What I learned: Eating um...indiscriminately is NOT worth it if you have to be bulimic to avoid gaining weight. Also that all bulimics are NOT slim like they are in the movies. And that bulimia is a beotch to get over - trust me in this. Takes YEARS of reprogramming the head. This is REALLY what the "obesity epidemic" hysteria does to us folks of size.... we get desperate and do foolish things in an attempt to fit in and for most of us, even THAT does not work. Daily exercise program. 1993From March 1993 on, I had a job where I could not ride my bicycle to work and it was full time so I was tired when I got home. So the small amount of exercise I was doing, went... out the window. By June 1993, I found I felt great except if I walked a block, I felt like I swallowed a can of drano. Also when I walked up the stairs daily (one flight) my secretary kept saying she was afraid she'd have to call an ambulance because I would be so out of breath and coughing etc. In other words, I was fine if I didn't MOVE! :) Around that time, a friend of mine only a couple of years older who was like me, a parttime exerciser, had a quadruple coronary bypass surgery. This really scared me. I SO did NOT want to go there. Although I was fat (too fat to exercise everyone said) I figured DAILY cardio would help prevent heart disease anyway - HAD TO. I started walking on my lunch period, 5 days a week and found after DOING it for a couple of months, I felt very well. I also discovered endorphins - Nature's own high. In July 1994, I started doing step aerobics and dance aerobics tapes. I didn't lose a lot of weight but I did lose quite a bit of size going from a size 22 to a size 14/16/18/20 (isn't today's sizing grand - a surprise in every store!). In August 1994, I decided to make a commitment to exercise every day of my life for the rest of my life. (I have kept that up even to this day, doing at least 40 minutes of cardio 6 days a week) Lost down to 209, then stopped and started to slowly gain back even WITH exercising. Dreams of being slim like all the fitness magazines promised were slowly dashed into pieces... bummer - major bummer. How come all the fitness stars had washboard abs? (I didn't know about lipo suction and airbrushing then - I actually thought they DID that on a reasonable program with exercise!) What I learned: Endorphins are the best high! :) And exercise makes you feel healthy and cuts your heart risks greatly! But the junk about losing weight or the weight "falling off" like TV tells us, is a crock for some of us... maybe for MANY of us. Shoot, even the models are AIRBRUSHED! Stopping the Insanity... or starting it? In 1995, I discovered Susan Powter! Susan Powter is a talkative woman who sported a very short haircut and
claimed to have weighed 260 lbs
(Since, Susan Powter has come out with a new program advocating being a "whole food", no dairy vegan which she details in THE POLITICS OF STUPID. She has also come out of other things... like the "closet" eschewing men as bad news (after the failure of her marriage to "THE HUSBAND" i.e. the musician). Susan looks great if you like the very slim look and she's a vivacious charming woman but I don't feel that a vegan diet is healthy. Besides the fact that "life is too short" for this one!) What I learned: limiting foods to one group is neither healthy nor doable in the long run and it won't necessarily make you lose weight. Also what sounds scientific, may not be (gee, I thought I learned that after the Atkins diet!). In the early 1990's it was thought we could obtain fatty acids from body fat. Wrong. So while on the low fat diet, I had ongoing problems with dry cracking open skin that no lotion would help and my arthritis got worse (cartilage is made of ... fat!). Vegetarianism Jan - Oct 2002: They say there are no fat vegetarians. Don't you believe it. I was so hungry in eating no meat that I gained more weight. Even exercising 60 minutes or more daily. Now up to 236... again. And all this while restricting food AND exercising. After trying on a pair of pants which had fit me a couple of years ago and now, couldn't even put my legs in them and getting on the scale, the horror hit me. Unlike all the claims, the nightmare of regaining had NOT ended for me. What I learned: Not everything you hear on the news is the truth. In fact, very LITTLE of what we hear is accurate. In fact, when it comes to obesity, THEY LIE LIKE A RUG. A friend told me Weight Watchers had a new program that she was very impressed with. So in Oct 2002, I went to Weight Watchers, and the first thing I did was counted how many "points" I was having a day - came out to about 65 or 3000 calories a day. So I cut down to something more appropriate for my size and age, about 2000-2200 calories - this was NOT what Weight Watchers suggested. But then I didn't really want a diet. I just wanted a healthy program I could live on and not gain weight. Surprising to me, I lost 32 lbs on this program of about 40-48 points daily! And I was stoked, thinking maybe I would reach goal, a generous 180 lbs. However, as usual, my body stopped losing at the weight of 209 and started regaining (same program) after about 18 months. But this time I wasn't cheating so I knew it was my body and not me. Interesting. What I learned: Many foods have a lot more calories than you would think. Weight Watchers provides a good system of keeping tabs on how much we are eating and also provides cognitive therapy tools for dealing with those times when we want to eat for emotional reasons. One has to calorie restrict (1200-1400 calories a day) to force one's body to stay at a lower weight. A recent study showed that over a 2 year period, people on Weight Watchers only had a net loss of 11 lbs. So I'm about in the average group there. Another large study showed that 95 percent of people who lose weight, gain it back within 4 years. And there is some rather good evidence that calorie restriction isn't healthy for seniors like myself and can actually cause immune challenge, raise the risk for cancer and other things. (most Weight Watchers on maintenance are eating around 21 to 24 points daily which is similar to 800-1200 calories a day depending on how many veggies they eat) I found ONE Weight Watcher, a man who was keeping off 70 lbs and was alloted 30 points a day (about 1500 calories). He exercises for 2-3 hours every day and then, fights gains every so often. So I disappointedly (after my great hopes of attaining a weight in "ONE DER LAND" i.e. under 200 began to fade) left Weight Watchers meetings although still stay connected through their web access. Weight Watchers was good and bad news. It gave me a tool by which I can control my weight SOMEWHAT. But it also killed my metabolism. So I jumped off the diet bus, for good. Well, not quite So after Weight Watchers, I ate about 2000-2200 calories a day and gained from 244 to 267. Worse thing, grew out of my bicycling pants. That was sort of the dealbreaker. Then I heard about Dr Oz ("You on a Diet") program i.e. cut 100-200 calories a day and walk 20 minutes, 4 times a week. I cut to 1800 calories and lost a few lbs down to 261. Then went shopping in June and looked lovingly at the go-carts there (scooters - electric wheelchairs whatever) because frankly I was having a hard time walking in all the stores and realized that I seldom WENT shopping because I had lost my ability to walk very far and even WITH supposedly working the walking muscles almost daily. Well, I work at home so don't do much walking there. And I was walking maybe once every 2 weeks in 2000 or so and gave it up totally when I got my trikke scooter in 2003 (figured I worked the same muscles without the impact and pain). Well, OK I'm almost 63, I reasoned so if I have to use a scooter I will - that's what they are for. But I figured I wasn't going to give this thing up without a fight. And now thinking of it, anytime I included REGULAR walking, I lost weight. Worth a try... So in July 2007, I started the walking program. OUCH. First of all, it was hot as that place we all don't want to go - I sweated perfusely and got dehydrated and couldn't DRINK enough water at the time to rehydrate so had to work over the next day to catch up on hydration, and secondly, my body hurt all over for several months. But I kept it up and now, in November 2007, I was pretty pain free and could walk while shopping, at the state fair etc. And I lost another few lbs down to 254 and could kind of squeeze into my biking pants. So I cut to 35 points which is reasonable for my age (another OZ suggestion - he feels it's healthy to slightly calorie restrict) and started journaling regularly. As of April 2008, I weigh 236.5 and can better fit my bicycle pants. :)
What I learned: I think I wasted a lifetime trying to control my weight and would have been better off to NEVER have dieted in the first place because then, I would likely weigh about 180 or so with eating what I want, which is better than the 236.5 lbs I weigh today with working my butt off. The idea that we can control our bodyweight may be an erroneous one. The body seems to defend the highest weight attained which it apparently feels is a healthy weight (it produces at least 4 hormones stated Dr Rudy Leibel, obesity researcher, which force a regain whether you overeat or not). Also, I am becoming increasingly convinced that since the studies show that LEAN people (fit or unfit) are at highest risk, humans may have been one of those species designed under ideal circumstances, to be somewhat obese (like bears and pigs). Nature doesn't care how we look, only how we function and there are some definite advantages to obesity like 40 percent less risk of cancer, almost no deaths from Alzheimers, Parkinsons and other diseases (latest study) .etc. All we have to control our weight slightly (and control our health A LOT) is slightly cutting calories but making sure you eat enough to get the nutrients, cutting foods which are calorie dense and provide little to no nutrition (and a lot of chemicals which may be cancer causing) and exercising cardio at least 5 days a week. Whatever the case, don't fret about your size i.e. love yourself whatever size you are. My hubby has a cousin who has a high BMI like probably 60's or higher, is 73 years old, travels the world, is healthy (and she does have diabetes but doesn't do the diet so much i.e. likes her sweets) and she does NOT exercise. She walks with a walker but she speeds along with that thing, still cooks complex meals etc - only recently quit working in a store on her feet - the walker was an addition last year after a fall. Has never had any surgery. On the other hand, we have another family member who is very slim (has never been fat) who has a lot of comorbidities in her 50's. Life is too short and hating yourself will NOT make you slim and for some of us, neither will "obesity solutions" make us slim. And dieting has its own dangers - not well publicized of course, but it may make you unhealthy, apparently a lot more unhealthy than obesity will do! The following books have up to date information on Obesity
research The program I am following (besides Weight Watchers): Oz, Mehmet/Roizen: YOU STAYING YOUNG (NY, 2007) |
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Started that in High School. You
know, 900 calories a day. Lost down to a somewhat socially acceptable
weight but was so hungry, I gained it back and then some. (in the photo
to the left, I weighed about 124 lbs, was very sick, constantly and regained
fast.)
burning over
2000. Then I saw photos and I didn't look very good. Was too slim and out of
proportion. I also had no energy and was constantly hungry. This is when I would
dream of eating big meals and wake up in a cold sweat worried that I had re-gained
again.. When I met my husband, he felt I was too slim and took me
out to eat. I ate. I immediately felt better. I also gained 20 lbs the
first month I knew him. (I call the photo to the left "body by anorexia"!
I thought I was fat in that picture!)
control weight. Helped
a bit but not much. And it made me sick a lot with asthmatic bronchitis
and even pneumonia one year. Decided to kick the habit. Being fat was preferable
to being ill. With smoking I got down to 148 before pregnancy. Then I wanted to get
pregnant so quit smoking. Ate according to FDA charts adding Dairy Queen
every night. Delivered an Apgar 10 baby (who now, at 38, is
PhD-ABD, married a wonderful lady and they have four incredibly wonderful, talented,
beautiful kids - I'm not biased or anything... haha). Gained 50 lbs with
pregnancy "BAAAALOOONING" up to 190 lbs. Didn't lose any weight
when I had the baby. Hospital food was good and I got double portions
(nursing, needed food for two, right? NOT) so I left the hospital 5 lbs heavier
than before I had my baby! In the years I smoked I maintained a svelte (not) 170
- 203 lbs.
up a book by Jean Nidecdt and
really related. Intrigued I attended meetings and found it very effective. I
lost down to 143 lbs, and got close enough to goal to be able to work as a clerk/weigher..
I found the program was satisfying but restrictive. The list of stuff
you couldn't have was far longer than what you could have. I set my goal too low and never made
lifetime membership. As
long as I continued to go to meetings and drank gallons of diet pop with
caffeine in it, I kept my weight down but in Jan 1973, I developed an allergy to
saccharine, the artificial sweetener in diet pop back then. Got SICK -
optic neuritis, conjunctivitis, the whole ten yards. Gave it up and without the
caffeine, starvation fatigue HIT... hard (was maintaining my weight of 145-150
by eating 1200 calories a day). I remember going to a Weight Watchers
meeting and being so tired, I could hardly put one foot in front of the other.
Being slim had not solved my life problems nor had it made me look like a model.
And I started to get sick of feeling fatigued, cold all the time, and being sick
constantly with every bug that came along. And of course there was the being ravenously hungry.
Went off Weight Watchers and gained
it all back to 195 or so.
at one time. She
is very
forthright, a person you just couldn't NOT believe, who offered a plan where a
person could eat anything with a fat content of under 20 percent and still
lose weight. Susan P had totally gotten out of the diet nightmare, she
told us, through a
program which was a variation of the Pritikin low fat diet with 40 minutes of cardio
daily. (Nathen Pritikin, by the way, committed suicide at the age of 69
when he was diagnosed with leukemia - guess that diet wasn't all that healthy -
at least not for him). In some ways it was freeing because of no portion control or
calorie counting. But in other ways, it was more restrictive than Weight Watchers in
the 1970's. So naturally I cheated sometimes. And also things like
sugar pop were "legal" - well it's no fat. Over 7 years, I
gained slowly to 229 - that's WITH exercising DAILY for at least 60 minutes.
It was all muscle, I reasoned.
I
count points instead of calories and basically follow the Weight Watchers
suggestions for healthy eating. I eat healthy, mostly low fat foods
but I have added Peanut butter daily for Omega VI fatty acids (this made my skin
really silky - no more cracking dry skin) and fish oil soft gel supplements for
Omega III fatty acids (this has caused a rather drastic improvement in my
arthritis). I have small meals throughout the day though no fast foods or junk foods,
no additives like nutrasweet, of course no tobacco or alcohol. I do eat lots
of veggies. I have not been ill for years (except for the flu I just got
over... argh) and am 63 years old and very fit
and healthy... can run, can bike more, dance more and lots of other things than
I could when I was 20. Also can do things like Yoga. My workout
program is 40 minutes cardio like trikke scooter or health rider or gazelle
freestyle (or swimming in the summer), 6 days a week. Yoga, 15-25 minutes,
7 days a week. Weight training (do that WITH cardio like healthrider).
And walking 20 minutes, 4 days a week. (to the right - me taken in April
2008)